What is fitness? I mean really what is it? What does it mean when someone says “oh she is in shape” in shape for what? To be in shape is relative - we can each be in shape for whatever we train for and be utterly out of shape for something we don’t.
And fitness ... to me... far supersedes the state of body. We are mind body and soul. To be healthy in one area we have to be healthy in all areas ... so therefore to be fit in body, we just be fit in spirit and mind. Likewise to be fit in mind, we need to be fit in spirit and body. And same rings true for healthy spirit. Some of us have an extremely heavy emphasis on fitness of one area and compensate for lack in one or both others ... and yet we will hear from this very same person they want balance... but balance is often referred to work/life balance - but what is balance? If my fitness of mind body and soul are in balance I’m imaging a more abundant healthier enriched fulfilled life .... and I imagine all the categories of life will also be balanced by natural law as well.
Anyhow I went off on a side tangent - to get back on track .... fitness ... my goal for this trip was to stay fit while traveling and write about it... and there has been a lot of eb and flow in how I approach this goal. Some days and weeks it’s been purely about getting some kind of activity in my day for movement and /or conditioning of body health. Some days and weeks I get to spend more time really moving slowly and exploring my body demands. Sometimes my body has hurt in various ways making it hard to do many things and then I focus on what I can do....
And while I’ve written about the body part of my fitness journey, and a few blogs about my attempts at self love journey, I’ve not tied the two together ... and I’ve left a lot out. I want to bridge the gap.
Most days I meditate - although I’ve been noticing that last month or so the time committed to my meditation hasn’t been as productive because I’ve found my mind wandering quite a bit more then usual. This has left me feeling a little more spiritually disconnected then I had previously been getting used to.
And for my mind, I write.... and in writing I try to be observant.
The conclusion I have most recently come to as the pains and limitations in my body continues to expand... is that my body wants me to slow the F down... my body mind soul need some healing... and I have finally found my way to the type of place I need to be to allow this healing to flow. I knew when I set off for this trip that healing and self love were a big part of my journey, and this journey wouldn’t look the way everyone else’s does... and I was ok with that - but being human somewhere along the way I started resisting this. As it started to unfold just as it was supposed to, I found myself wanting it to be different.
However, the other day it was loud and clear that I am here - where I’m supposed to be - and my body is really telling me so slow the fuck down, stop needing to do everything, stop worrying about getting fat - and just love me - love every piece of me - love it all... in all the ways I’ve been better on this journey into self love - I still see where I am still so hard on myself, especially when it comes to food and exercise and the possibility of gaining any weight or getting any looser. There is choosing healthy options out of love and there is choosing them out of obsession and fear - sadly I must admit where I still make choices out of fear, and this isn’t loving.
So here I stand - or lay really - ready to be with me A LOT - and slow down - and honor the space my body needs - and the space my mind needs to listen to what my body has been trying to say for way too long.
Our body will always speak - often softly at first, but if we don’t listen it gets louder and louder until it starts to scream. I think my body has been screaming for some time. So I’m recommitting to my meditations with spirit, and giving myself the time to be curious and listen to what’s inside and what still needs expressed in emotion so it stops expressing itself in physical pain.
Questions I will be asking myself and journaling about ...
What thoughts are constantly running in my monkey mind?
What emotions am I addicted to?
What feelings still need to express themselves?
What type of reoccurring relationships do I settle for?
What are my patterns?
What happens if I just slow down and worry less about getting fat or whether or not I can do a pistol by the end of my trip, and more about what feels right for me each moment?
What if I just notice more sunsets and shining stars in the sky & feel more connected to source energy and the magic of the universe?
What if I slow the fuck down and stop swimming upstream and just let life happen for a once?
Can I truly truly learn to love all of me? In love not in fear ... can I truly love me even if I move a little less (or differently for a while) if I slow down, if I do less, if I see less, if I explore less ... can this all be ok - better then ok - can it be perfect? And can I love it for what it is? And who I am?
What other ways am I lacking self love and honor on this journey? What areas can I still work on my growth while loving all of me along the way?
So basically I suppose I realize I’ve been lacking balance lately in my fit journey and I need to rebalance and recenter myself - so I will practice worrying a little less about how much activity I do and practice a little more on my commitments to all areas of my health & fitness.
Would you like to join me? 🙏🏼😘
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