Journal questions asked: What legacy do I want to leave to the women who come behind me? How do I want them to view themselves? What do I need to deal with so that I can set a strong example?
Bare with me... cuz this one isn’t going to flow as smoothly - I might be all over the place... I’m just letting the thoughts write themselves down as they unravel! (This is an emotional one for me - as I know I have A LOT of work to do myself to get to the point to be able to leave the type of legacy I desire, but this is my constant vision, the thoughts that run through my mind all the time, the thoughts that constantly challenge me and make me question how I can change, evolve and get better at leading through example on a daily basis).
I want to leave behind a legacy of security, self love, honor, worthiness, enrichment, joy, faith, simplicity, and belief in beauty inside, outside, and all around. I want to help encourage and lead women to love and honor herself for exactly who she is interior and exterior, because only then will she feel worthy of taking the necessary action steps to make mindful decisions and choices around her health (both mental and physical), which will then continue to build up her self esteem. I want to encourage women to be secure in herself and to not feel the need to constantly compare herself to others, as she is perfect in her own growth. I want to help her learn to be patient with her growth, and remind her that God isn’t in a hurry, so why should we be. I want to encourage her to be forgiving to herself when she does make mistakes or make choices that weren’t necessarily ideal - to not wallow in guilt. I want to help her gain confidence in who she is both as a woman and as a child of God. I want to help her discover her greatness intimately so that they can allow it to naturally unravel instead of living a life of fear or self-sabotage. I want to lead by example and encourage all other women to take a roll in leading by example in her own way through her strengths to continue to carry on a positive legacy that all can benefit from. I want to show women the greatness in honoring each other and serving each other, and growing intimately together, recognizing our common womanly traits. Call me crazy - this might seem far fetched... but I believe it can happen... for each of us... a little bit, one day at a time...
...But first I have to ask myself, what do I need to deal with so that I can lead by example? Well... I could approach this question two ways... The first way, glass half empty - and focus on ALL the things I don’t yet do right or am not 100% committed to yet, and how I still have so much to learn to be able to be this leader, OR I could take option 2. Glass half full.. I think I will take this opportunity to dissect this question in my mind through the latter. What I need to deal with is EXACTLY what I am dealing with - day by day. Truth is - I have NOT arrived... and I never will why I am on Earth, but what I can do is commit to constant awareness & constant growth. To be aware of where I fall short, but to know what I am striving for, shows that I am forgiving of my imperfections, gives others permission to be kind to herself as she is, committed to forgiveness while still committed to growth. Honestly though, I fall short in it all - I do... but that is ok... because I am a work in progress. Sometimes I get really hard on myself, sometimes I get so mad at myself when I make the same mistake two times, when my actions fall short of my expectations of myself or others expectations of me... But what I can do now that I couldn’t do before is recognize it, forgive it, release it to God, and trust that I am a work in progress... and stay true and committed to eternal evolvement. One thing though that will be of the utmost importance for me to embark on this journey of leading by example, is seeking women out - embracing them - developing sound relationships with them where we can learn and grow from each other, supporting one another along the way. I can’t encourage, support or help someone who I have no relationship with. This doesn’t always have to be in person. This can also be through social media, through my blogging and beyond.. I can use any facet of communication to reach someone and help them through sharing my journey, my trials, my struggles, my shortcomings, my over comings, and my successes.