It’s funny how I can read about perspective, talk about perspective, and think about perspective, but so often not put things in perspective, or at least not be able to see the different perspectives often in a moment... Bright side, is it usually doesn’t take too long. I read stuff all day and repost quotes all the time about how we view a situation or how we react to the situation is what defines us and our ability to be happy even through tough times..We all talk about it, but do we apply it? Do we stop, sit in silence, and really think about how we could better view a situation, contemplate if there is a different perspective we could see something as, a different lens to view it through, perhaps a new outlook? It’s funny how much our way of viewing something can completely change and alter our state of mind... Or at least I know that I am learning that in my experiences.
I gotta be flat honest... as of late, I have been having some personal issues, and I have been finding myself angry, mad, bitter, jealous, frustrated, irritated, feeling taken for, resentful, sad, and confused, amongst many other negative, or not so great emotions. I have been choosing to only look at a particular situation through one lens, with one way of thinking, and the result of this has been me harboring all of these negative emotions. And, who wants that? Negative emotions tend to manifest in physical form, they harm you in more ways then one, and are detrimental to your happiness, relationships, health and life. Consciously I know this, and consciously I knew that the reasons for some of these emotions where somewhat unrealistic, and not in tune with the character I want to possess, or more importantly with the woman I want to be, the woman I have worked very hard at being.
It is funny though how sometimes we can consciously be aware of something such as this, yet feel that we still have no control over feeling it... Not necessarily that we have no control, just we know that this way of thinking has such a tighter grip on us. Or now that I think of it, maybe we just haven't seen the situation in the light. Maybe we haven’t seen it from the other perspective to hold in our hearts a new way of thinking. I don’t know if this makes any sense... but my point is if I am thinking A, and consciously I know it isn’t how I really want to be thinking or reacting, but I haven’t fully discovered B as an option, then I don’t know how to change my thoughts and get out of A thinking. Once I am able to see through a new lens, and see the B perspective, it is as if a light has shined up me... helping me realize that I do indeed have a CHOICE...and that choice, in every choice, in every situation, greatly affects my health, happiness, and healing.
So after spending the last several weeks stuck, if you will, in one way of thought, despite knowing it wasn’t appropriate, not knowing how to see beyond it or otherwise, it is as if tonight, when I finally allowed myself to sit in silence I had somewhat of an epiphany... I was suddenly able to tie several things together and see this whole situation from an entirely new perspective... and a much healthier, more positive, peaceful, enlightening perspective at that. It was honestly the most calming experience where I found myself suddenly filled with joy, my heart filled with love, my soul filled with purpose. Perspective... it’s funny how things work. Now I am not saying this was some magical moment that healed me... whereby everything is just going to be easy now, where I am going to have my emotions in synch with what I learned from this moment at all times, but it is a starting point - a healthy starting point. It is a ‘way of thinking’ for me to consciously get back to anytime my mind goes astray. It is a goal. It is a destination. It is a journey. It is an opportunity to stay connected to God, remembering my purpose in life, to count my blessings, and maintain peace and gratitude in my heart.
Perspective - its a funny thing - big word - powerful impact... ONE situation - two totally different perspectives, and two polar opposite emotional reactions - as extreme as light & dark. The best part is... once we realize it - the choice is always our very own! If that isn't empowering, I don't know what is! <3