Church last week was about what happens when our integrity and employment collide. This service brought up a lot of old ‘stuff’ for me, that I have long dealt with, but never truly let go. It was extremely refreshing, because I feel like for the first time in years I was spoken to, and the decision I made 3.5 years ago was confirmed as the right thing to do. This was a blessing, as I have carried a lot of weight around in my heart for way too long.
This constant questioning of whether or not I did do the right thing, left me uncertain about my ability to make decisions. Now I feel more confident if I do indeed follow my gut and heart, I will be lead in the best direction. In addition, through my experience in a previous job I was left constantly feeling like a failure. This has created a lot of insecurities in my abilities, and has led over the past several years to me telling myself a lot of stories about what I can or can’t do, my worth, and my value, which has limited me, and caused me to hold myself back.
Service was so powerful for me, because in my heart I know that for the entire time I was in my previous career I indeed acted with integrity, with heart, and soul. I gave it my everything, and at the end of the day, that career wasn’t for me, I wasn’t for it, and parting ways for the ‘right’ reasons was extremely worth it. Thanks to this realization I also feel like I can finally stop telling myself these stories, or lies about my capabilities, my strengths or my talents, and I can create new stories. I no longer have to feel like I am inadequate at certain tasks that this other job left me feeling like. Yay!
As much as I have questioned my previous action to boldly walk away from something, as many of my friends and family would say, “was stable, and amazing money, and opportunity”.. it was actually the perfect thing to do. I stood strong for my beliefs, I didn’t succumb to pressure, and I walked away from acting out of character. In addition, this bold effort forced me out of my comfort zone. The absolute best part in it all is that it opened the door of opportunity for me to finally pursue a long standing passion, and turn it into a career.
Now I am blessed with a wonderful career, in the most amazing industry, that I am seriously passionate about. I am never asked to compromise integrity, if anything it would be shun upon. My personal values, morals, and my beliefs completely align with what I do. And, I get to encourage, inspire, and influence other people into a healthy life through nutrition and exercise that I not only believe in, but live. To me, it is living proof that doing the right thing for the right reasons, no matter how difficult or impossible or challenging it may seem in the moment, will always lead to a better outcome, and it is worth it. The best options aren’t always the easiest options, but they usually end up being the most rewarding.
IF you ever find yourself in a compromising position, ask yourself if you are prepared for a life of compromise. Chance is that if a boss or partner or owner of a company asks you to do it once, they will ask you again. While it might often seem like that is your only option, remember that we ALWAYS have a choice. Choose the path that most represents you and what you believe in - don't settle - don't succumb. Even when the alternative seems impossible, have faith, in God, and yourself, that doing the right thing - will always yield better results, and bring you to a better place.