Dancing... Words can't express how I feel about it ... How from the minute I tried it i felt like it was the one thing I had truly been missing all my life ... I think about it every day... I want to be better at it, way better, in many forms ... I'm terrible right now -and slow to learn, and that is OK... But what I'm learning most about the experience of learning is that no matter how slow the progress - there is still progress, as long as I keep showing up and wanting it... And every step of the journey is fun and exploratory.
Its changed my entire perspective on music... I have always loved music - as far back as I can remember -many types in all forms throughout different stages of life... And like most, I've obviously memorized the lyrics of not only my all time favs, but most songs I hear often... However, I listen to music now with more awareness then ever before, more intention... I hear it for so much more then the words ... I'm able to truly hear beats and allow my body to connect to it in a rhythmic way, unlike ever before. I used to think that people were either born with rhythm or they weren't, and now I know this isn't true. Obviously I do believe that yes, some of us are born to do certain things and we have innate gifted abilities... But I also believe that we all have the capacity to learn whatever we set our hearts on... Maybe we won't be world famous doing it or the best of the best - but we can sure get damn good ... It's all about the commitment and energy we put into it... My first night at Ellington I couldn't hold a beat if someone paid me, since then I will find myself in my car daily - flipping through various types of music while in cruise control practicing my steps to different beats! Laugh if you will - yes I laugh @ myself... But it's those little things that make me better ... And I'm a firm believer that when we are practicing being better at anything in life - that it just makes us a better human in general - because growth breeds growth - and when we can start to apply our experience of growing, learning and being better in one area of life we can often transfer it to many other areas of our lives as well... The act of daily disciplines and the impact it has on us is transferable to any skill, habit or practice we are trying to improve!!!!
So off on a tangent I was - but bringing it back to dance - ugh, have I mentioned I just love it - adore it in every way- wish I could do it everyday- want to learn different styles - I love the way I feel when I'm dancing - free!!! Free of stress, free of worry... I laugh - endlessly - it's the only place in my life I have truly learned to laugh @ myself for messing up ... Of course it didn't start this way- I worried - how silly I looked - what if I messed up then I wasn't fun to dance with - blah blah list goes on- but then I started realizing it didn't matter and refocusing on why I wanted to do it to begin with and it all changed ... Now It's a safe place for me to be ME - the real me unleashed - I can be silly - goofy - laugh -mess up - try something new - look silly doing it - but that's ok- explore my body -and learn to move it in ways I never had before - which on a side note I believe allowing our bodies to explore movement makes us all better humans- our bodies were made to move and they are beautiful gifts !!! So yea - it's pretty rad - it can be artistic and free flowing or proper and specific. No matter, it takes creative energy ... Especially partner dancing for the lead - and it takes the ability of the follower to LET GO of a need to control and just go with the flow.
I love it, and the more I do it the more and more respect I have for dancers and their strength, body control, awareness, movement abilities, and shear beauty ... They are athletes and artists all at the same time... They can move their bodies through space in ways some of us can't even fathom... The more I practice the more sore I get in ways I've never experienced through all my years in a gym... It's challenging in a new way and great!
I encourage anyone who has never tried dancing in some form or another to explore it - maybe partner dancing where you follow specific steps is better for you, or maybe you will find yourself gravitating to a more free flow, solo, expressive form of dance ... Or a combination of the two or even all of the above ... or maybe it is just grooving in your own way in your undies behind closed doors @ home by yourself ;-) Perhaps you have a hidden talent or suppressed passion you weren't even aware you had!! What have you got to loose? Our bodies were made to move!
I'm so blessed and grateful to have legs and feet that allow me to dance and move ... And a soul that allows me to groove <3