I know. I get it. I can begin to imagine all the rebuttals to this question. “Not me, no there is no way, you have no idea how hard I’ve had it. No, life has not been for me, it’s been dark and heavy and I’m a mess. I hate life. What’s the point of it all? I’m in pain, I hurt, you wouldn’t understand. Lady, your crazy - you obviously had a fairy tale childhood.” 
I get it. In my younger years I couldn’t see it yet either. Stuck in what felt like an eternal downward spiral of pain on every level... swimming up steam against a massive current, feeling most days like I was drowning, but secretly, of course, because I can’t let anyone know I don’t have it all together. Unless we are talking about the victim card. Then I could have played that all damn day. Of course it wasn’t my fault. None of it obviously. I mean how could it be - everyone else did it to me! (insert sarcasm) The universe isn’t fair. Life isn’t fair. Why meeeeeeeeee !!!
Ugh I have to honestly say I have heard it all - straight from my own mouth and mind. I was in deep, and I just couldn’t see how 1. I could have possibly been playing a role, and 2. the bigger and most important part: that it was ALL FOR me. That’s right I said it. It was ALL FOR me. The trauma, the pain, the sorrow, the sadness, the anger, the loss, the life that felt like groundhog day because I kept reliving the same story, different era. Ya you read that right, and to place emphasis here - I will say it again. It ALL was FOR me. And you know what? It’s for you too, when you are ready to see it. Because I can’t make you. I can share my story. I can share perspective. I can share what helped me shift, but at the end of the day, we all live this life in our own divine timing, and only you can make the choices for you. Only you can decide the trajectory of your future, what your next chapter will look like, or as a matter of fact, your whole damn book.
We have choice, I said that too. I know, I know.... here it comes ... “but you don’t understand, I don’t have a choice, it’s impossible”… Right, and what is that classic saying? When we defend our limitations, we get to keep them?  Mmm classic I love that one. Read it again. Because while I can not hold your hand, and while I can not make the choices for you, nor can I most likely even convince you that you do indeed have the ability to choose, I can say that we ALWAYS have choice, even in what appears to be the most impossible situation.
Now listen, never ever have I said nor will I say, it’s easy,  but it is in fact, possible. Quite frankly, most of the wonderfully helpful tasks in life to live our best lives are simple in theory; much harder in practicality. Again, not impossible. I guess we each get to decide how bad we want it (whatever IT is). We have to be willing and more committed to finding the reasons in our life WHY the universe is FOR us, rather then affirming what we previously believed. Hey if you aren’t there yet - no judgement that’s ok too. Remember I said I couldn’t force you.
However I challenge you to ask yourself what are you getting from staying stuck? What are you getting from being a victim? What are you getting from believing the worst? There is ALWAYS a give and take (cost verse benefit). Even if unconscious, there is always a way we are being served, unfortunately in these circumstances it is our ego, our unconscious, our deepest fears and old stories that are being served,  not our potential or best self. Now if you can figure out the answer to this - then you get to decide what is most important. Because remember - you always have choice - even within your own self. 
Let me ask you this. Do you want to be empowered? Do you want to step into your personal power and start creating a new destiny? 
Or will you decide to stay in the life you have always known, the story that you have, and defend your current state til death? 
I know for me that I reached a point where enough was enough. No more Groundhog Day for this Gal! And I have to tell you, the very second I took my power back, the very second I realized how empowering it was to step into responsibility, was the moment I knew I would never go back. Does this mean it was instant, perfect and wrapped up in a red bow? Haha don’t we all wish. Does it mean, moments where I felt the victim rise within? Or the old stories creep back up? Or the voices tell me I can’t do it, don’t deserve it, or it’s too hard? NO way - come on - even Disney movies aren’t that perfect. Nope in fact, quite opposite. You know why? It’s the magic sauce - it’s ALL a part of the big old grand universe having yo-back! That’s right. I know - that sounds confusing, let me give you an example. Say I spent my whole life living as a perfect justified victim. Now I decide I will step into a life of empowerment. I will decide that a victim isn’t my story. Well guess what, the kind and generous universe will surely give me a chance to prove it, to practice this new way of being. Isn’t that grand?
Ok I think this calls for another explanation: our ego, which is like a child loves what is known - what is familiar. Our nervous system maintains an energy aligned with our present based on our past until we teach it something new. I decide to step into a new truth. Ego (child) feels scared and threatened by this newness… nervous system attracts into my experience a match for what was familiar to feel safe again. Ohhhh in this moment I can give in and say well ok - I wasn’t that serious anyhow. OR - I can make a choice - I can accept the unknown, I can compassionately soothe that little crying ego and gently remind her not today. And I can laugh and delight that this was merely another opportunity from the Universe to stay committed to my new choice. See  - FOR me… Reminder - didn’t say it was easy. Only worth it, at least for me. For you? Maybe?!? That’s for you to decide. 
Lately I have been being challenged by some old stories of my past, old insecurities. My choice is to notice, and then say, I understand you fear, I hear you fear,  but let me show you ALL the evidence ALL around me that supports that isn’t my story or truth anymore. For example, sometimes we have something happen. Let’s say it triggers a twinge of unlovability. Well it can be easy to get caught up on that story, and then focus on all the proof we can find to support how and why we aren’t lovable…. OR because this is highly unlikely our actual truth, we can honor the old story, hold space for that inner child feeling, but then affirm and show her ALL the ways that support that story is not our story, and no longer holds value or truth in our life.
What we focus on we create more of…where attention goes, energy flows…so when I am looking for ALL the evidence to how I am lovable, or good enough, loved, heard, supported, seen, understood, valuable and worthy - then guess what? WE FIND IT!!! We do - we find the reasons to support these beliefs. Just the same… if we buy into the old stories that are not our truth, well, guess what, we can find that evidence as well…. So again… what does it come down to? Choice! Choice! Choice! 

I don’t know about you… but damn I love having a choice ! <3 

SO I choose to trust that the Universe is for ME! The best part: She is for you too! And you…and you…and you! 


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#chooselove 

The healer in me
Sees the healer in you 
Yes my dear it’s very true 
You have indeed been lied to 
We are taught in this culture 
To give our power away 
We are taught this every single day 
That we must go to the “experts” 
For they will know the truth we seek 
Or the solutions we need
But this is false you see 
The answer is within you and me 
You ask “where do I even begin?” 
Begin by looking within 
The “experts” can definitely be valuable
There is a time and place 
But the biggest truths, we already know 
Stop giving your power away 
Take it back - why not today? 
To the doctors, the medicine world 
We have been giving it away for way too long
But no more, not today, not in any way 
You see we don’t always need this doctor, this specialist, 
This prognosis, this medicine, these supplements, 
Or this restricted diet
It’s all a hot mess 
It’s a system that means well, I suppose
But it’s been making us more sick 
It’s disempowering people and creating more internal chaos. Not
knowing anymore who or what we can actually trust
We get hopeful, excited & then let down 
Because that pill wasn’t the solution after all 
Or one pain goes away and another begins 
Or the aching pain heals but stomach problems persist 
We mistake what is common as normal, 
Without realizing how good we could actually feel 
You still aren’t sure where to begin 
If you can’t find the answers you seek within 
If you must look “outside” of self
Look up to the sun, the stars, the moon, & the sky
For we are made of the same cells
Our soul a fragment of the soul of our Mother, our Earth. 
I promise you that if there is something chronic within
That more then likely the answer indeed begins also within
It’s an inside job: exploring the inner child, rewiring your brain Call me crazy - I get it - to some this will sound insane
But we loose connection to our inner wisdom
When for so long we are taught to give our power away
So again I say, take it back - Take it back today!
Because we are all self healing beings
It’s so very true 
And the healer in me, sees the healer in YOU.




​#chooselove 

Words are powerful
So be wise with what you think
And think before you speak
We think in words
And thoughts are energy
Though lead to feelings also known as emotions
Emotions are energy IN motion
Therefore the thoughts we think, create this energy in motion
The words we speak aloud envoke emotion
So then it seems important to me
To be very aware of the words we chant and speak - specially as a crowd
Because power in two is stronger then one
So chants done collectively
Carry intense energy
Manifesting reality
Think this sounds too “whooo whooo” for you
Look into it - cuz it’s honestly true
In a world that is built in so many lies
There is one truth that you can see with your own eyes
Quantum physics - it never lies
It’s the most reliable science
Just ask Dr Bruce Lipton, my fav 😉
And I have to say I believe in it too
Energy exists -it’s literally everywhere and in everything
From every word to thoughts to the mantras we sing and chant
So if there is even the slightest possibility this is the case
Wouldn’t it make sense to trust & embrace
If we are going to think and then speak and then create a feeling
We may as well make sure it has positive meaning
A lot more Focus on what we want to create
A lot less focus on what drives the hate
And continues to separate
So what if we start to say “we WILL breath” watch and see
In peace with justice we will be
Words spoken aloud or silently
Try it yourself
I promise if you quiet your mind
Get super present
Feel your body you will undeniable witness
The very difference
Two opposite mantras can create within and all around you
So let’s be powerful forces that only speak out loud bountiful, beautiful chants of what we want to manifest
Stand tall be proud with poise and confidence
This positive energy flowing will bring so much healing
Chant together I am I will I can we are we will we demand
United we stand
A powerful force that can’t be reckoned
As long as we speak love and stay connected
Focus on the world we WANT to see
Speak the truth of this new world unanimously
I’m excited for this truth to be known
And I’m thrilled to watch the beauty unfold


​#chooselove 💕