When I used to read blogs (before I started writing) I always thought that if the writers were writing about something then they surely had that something figured out... I figured they not only wrote about it but lived it ... Mastered it even... Then I started writing ...
I use writing as a tool to stretch my mind, to explore an idea, a thought, an inspiration, or to process and learn about something through the act of writing ... I have learned that just because it is written doesn't mean it's mastered (definitely not for me) ... Maybe in writing and sharing we learn along the way & help inspire another to learn along side of us... I know that while writing can be a tool for masters to convey their mastery... I realize it can equally be a tool to aid in the journey to mastery... however long that journey may be.
I realize that writing has become a form of therapy for me - an opportunity to expand my thinking and grow ...when I don't create space in my life and schedule to be still - or to write - I miss out on so much opportunity to be better - I loose inspirations - ideas are fleeting and thoughts come and quickly go... Words can capture the essence of this all on paper (or a computer these days)... These written words, when shared, offer the opportunity for others to experience these thoughts, insights & inspirations as well... It can be powerful ...
For anyone who has never given writing a try I highly suggest it - it can be free flow, doesn't have to be organized, consise, it doesn't have to be published, public or shared with anyone ... One can write for his/herself privately- if she so chooses...
When and if we find ourselves thinking "oh I am not a good writer" then it's time to write a new story in the book of life... There isn't a right or wrong, or even a good or bad, like we might have learned in English class, when it comes to writing as a form of therapy, expression or discovery... It just is... It's personal ... And most of the time we are only "not good " at something when we decide that in our own minds... So my suggestion is just start... Whatever it looks like it and feels like- free of judgement or worry ... sharing optional.
I have this constant yearning to do something bigger, something better… something more then I am already doing… I feel like I know I have more to offer, but I am missing something - a way to connect the dots - lost in a vast sea, accepting that I have skill sets, talents and gifts that I crave to use, but haven’t figured out the best way how.
I heard this video the other day, by no other then, Jim Carrey… it was inspiring, insightful, and enriching in many ways… it got the mind spinning, thinking… He talks about how we have this voice in our head constantly comparing ourselves to others, attempting to remind us that we aren’t enough… not smart enough, funny enough, good enough, skilled enough… enough.. enough… enough… This is so far from the truth. Within each of us is something special - something great - we just have to figure out how to tap into this greatness.
He said, "I always thought I was going to go out in the world and do something bigger then myself, until someone smarter then myself made me realize there is nothing bigger then myself.” I ponder - what does this even mean, for me… Being myself, discovering who I truly am authentically, and being that woman… letting the raw hidden truth shine… this is doing something big for the world… It reminds me of what an old friend long long ago taught me when he said something along the lines of “being you, gives others the permission to do the same: be him, be herself.”
This sounds so easy on the surface, but yet is is profoundly hard to actually do - does it have to be? … Who is this self? We grow up conditioned, we take on the desires, the mindsets, the values, the principles, the hopes, the dreams, the goals of those around us, friends, piers, teachers, parents, family… we suppress deep within us parts of ourself that we fear, because they are “different’ then the status quo, or the desires that aren’t in sync with what everyone else says we ‘should’ want… we grow confused… we settle…we chase dreams that were never ours, accomplish goals that weren’t for us - feeling unfullfilled… and along the way we keep searching for this destination - thinking when we get here get there, get this do that… it will all make sense - and we will feel whole, feel complete, feel enough, feel like we did this bigger feat… but in the end we still feel lost, confused, stuck, empty, and NOT enough… but we were destined for different, not necessarily more, just different, maybe even less...
What if all along being authentic, being true to who we really are, who God made us to be, loving and honoring ourself and uniqueness, whatever that looked like… reflecting a loving light onto the world…what if that really is enough… what if just being myself is bigger then something ‘bigger then myself’…
How do we discover our uniqueness, our suppressed desires, our true dreams… we silence the mind… we remove distractions… we let go of beliefs that do not serve us… we grow in awareness, gain wisdom, listen in stillness to something deep within, deeper then the mind often let’s us go… We find our peace, our zen, we connect with our God, we spend some time with ourself and get to know this deep side of ourself that we grew apart from, that we suppressed, hid deep down, and ignored for far too long. And we grow to love us - all of us - every part - the good the bad the ugly the scary… recognizing that in the end its all beautiful…and then we let it shine, and fear not.
So we love us - and then we go love people... <3 <3
For FULL Jim Carrey video click here: http://omeleto.com/199433/