What a blessing I feel
To have such beautiful people
Such as yourself
In my life
You are a shining light
Your big beautiful smile
Your kind heart
I feel so lucky
To call you my friend
To spend time with you
I never want it to end
Thank you for being an open mind
A loving heart
So welcoming to all different points of view
Loving free of judgements
I love our talks
About ALL things
I love that you are willing to share with me
Your thoughts and perspectives
I learn a lot from you
When I listen
I feel so supported
And loved free of condition
So thank you from the bottom of my heart
That you for being an amazing friend
For staying connected all these years
And sharing your light with me over and over again.
I’m done. I’m done.
Enough is enough. I’ve had enough
I’m not wasting any more time
I’ve done so much damn research
Yet no fact and truth align
Everywhere you look is info overload with hidden agenda
Manipulation, right- left, he said -she said
Everyone trying to use every situation
For some politcal gain
Meanwhile we got the world practical going insane
There’s 10 narratives for every story
Who do we even believe
Everyone grips so tight to their side
Are they even questioning anything?
Cuz no matter what you are looking for
You will be able to find
Some information, stats & “facts” that support your side
I see this 3D world right now as a reflection of ours collective mind
I feel like we are all puppets
Being played almost all the time
The deeper I swim through all the mess
The more layers I peel back
The more I feel that it’s so much bigger
Then most of us can accept
So I’m done - I’m done overwhelming my nervous system -
confusing the shit out of my brain
I’m going to step back - take a deep breath
And take care of me again
The BEST way I can contribute to a healthy and beautiful world
Is to make sure I am healthy and at my best
Even if that means I need some rest - physically, emotionally & mentally
But spiritually I will connect
I will not stand to be guilted
as if I’m not doing enough
Because this world needs people to contribute in so many different ways
We need lots of open, loving hearts
So this is where I will start
love is my main language, unity, justice & peace will always be my stance
I have to honor what’s true for me
And in this moment it’s important to see
A vision for a new world
And to hold this vision I need to embody it
Each and everyday
For we are in a law of attraction dimension
And we create based on vibration
So some of us will need to hold the vision of one nation - one earth - one collective
For me it doesn’t settle well to focus more on what I don’t want to create
Or come from a place of hate
But when I get so lost in the info overload
I can’t focus and I want to explode
I truly believe through my entire soul
From the bottom of my heart
This is a spiritual battle
and it’s in ourself where we need to start
That the most important thing we all need to do
Is go within and clean ourselves out
We are a lifetime of wounded children walking around as adults
We have spent our whole life giving our power away
And the healthier our minds
The stronger our strength
Especially when we unite
It’s time to explote the evils at play
By shining light so dark they can no longer get away
With all the deceit, evil & lies
Let’s be a powerful force of butterflies
History has shown us you can’t drive out hate with hate
In war no body wins
The best weapon we can possibly bring
Is the powerful force of love we have within. 🙏🏼
I dream of a world - ONE world - where we all live as an expression of love...
But today there is so much hate
Where does it come from
I wish we could come together and recognize the very same truths we share and look deep into each other’s eyes
Realize the tears I cry are the same tears that that you cry too
The same smile of joy across our faces
The same feeling from warm embraces
Can’t we look behind color or country and see that we are all one race yet? Citizens of planet earth.
Yes we all have different passions, skills, talents and gifts - but in the end we are like a giant puzzle meant to come together - each of us a piece that fits perfectly in place
Celebrate the humanness in me and you
Because at the end of the day that is what is true.
I’m not enough
I’m too much ...
What does it all mean!?!
“Completely conflicting beliefs - is this one big dream .. gone bad ... perhaps a nightmare....Wake me up - no joke - before I feel despair ... oh wait - I’ve already been there.”
Your too hyper - too happy - can you tone it down
Oh now stop you’re crying - Dry your eyes - your being dramatic
You are just a girl ....
You are so smart - all brains - it’s just easy for you - “what you don’t think I work hard??? - well I do”
And where did you come from, it sure wasn’t us ....
But be a good girl and do as you are told, don’t dare ask why... go ahead and try me - see what you get.
Sports, no silly girl you aren’t athletic - you lack coordination. You definely can’t dance - your poor thing - you got your dad’s lack of rhythm...and do yourself a favor and don’t ever sing.
Too whoo whoo too hippie ... cant take you seriously
Your opinion doesn’t count cuz your ideals are unrealistic
You just gonna be one of those educated bumms wasting your skill - will you ever grow up?
Your moving away ? Well we know you will be back - it’s too expensive out there - you won’t make it - you will never last.
Wait, You don’t want a 9-5 & you don’t work full time -you aren’t up at sunrise working until midnight? I will ask you again what are you even doing with your life?
Ohhhh well you must just be lazy - sleep is over rated - it’s for the weak...
Play is for kids, now be an adult. Figure out what your life is about!
“Oh and by life do you mean what soul sucking job I will do - that you approve - that takes all my time - and sucks me dry.... stay stuck in the drama cycle and feel the stress and complain and bitch and moan like all of the rest?”
This is what life’s all about don’t you know? What, you think you are better then us cuz you don’t want the same stuff?
“Well I have and I do what I want - I’m happy, abundant and have more then I need ... isn’t this enough? How much more should I want? Yes I would love eventually to earn even more money to give lots back and this day is not far ahead - trust me at that.”
No no silly girl money doesn’t grow on trees - in fact it’s the root of all evil - rich people steal - so don’t you dare earn it and be one of those people.
And your hair - it’s too short - short hair is for boys ... and would you ever put on makeup and dress yourself up? You mean your going out in what you are wearing? Your not gonna change? Your not even going to do your hair? Those eyebrows to thick too thin - can’t you get it right?
You know you are getting old quick - I hope you use face cream .... and do you wanna die alone? No one is perfect so you may as well settle...
Ugh no kids for you either - well that’s a misfortune - you selfish woman -you are missing out - you will never - could never possibly understand true unconditional love - this is something only a mother knows...
Oh you have a dog and you think you understand love? Silly girl a dog is nothing like a child - I should know.
“Apparently other people get to decide how we should, should not, could, or could not possibly feel ...
Suddenly we are put into some box that says well he believes it -so then it must be - it just must.”
Give your power away - trust me I say- I’m the expert - I know what’s best for you these days...
And don’t worry if it’s wrong you can rest knowing you are the victim no fault of your own -you can pass the blame along.
Let me tell you how you should live your life ... and if you aren’t -how you should feel and never mind how you think you feel - those feelings aren’t even real ...
You believe in what? Oh that nonsense shit - that again - oh please just sit.
Another book you are reading another class you take? All this spiritual self development it’s all just fake. You have been working on yourself your whole life - why the need - if it actually worked then maybe you would be someone else... and you wouldn’t need to keep reading more - never mind the fact it’s a lifelong journey ...
oh wait what? .... back track .... Who says it’s not about a destination?!?
I’m totally going to be happy when I get there. Get where you ask? You know .. there ... the place I’ve never been - but when - just when I do - you will see - I will truly be happy - follow me.... you know the saying ... misery loves me some company.
“Nah I think I’ll pass on all that .... I’m going to stay on my own path - it has led me beautiful places, always in the graces .... and I’m feeling love from the divine - my life is unfolding in perfect time.
Thank you for all the trials and tribulations - it’s all of this that I’ve gone through that makes me me - and as far as who I am - I’m as proud as can be. I stand firm in my truth - and celebrate joyfully ... so you do you...and I will do me.”
To my one and only true love
My dearest dear
I hold you near
I am sorry I have not always been there for you
I’ve turned my back on you
I’ve walked away from you
I’ve denied you
I’ve guilted, shamed & blamed you
Yes, it’s all true
But now is different I promise that
I see you - I honor you - I love you
And I will never take my love back
You are a gem- a shining light- a beautiful soul
I see how hard you have faught to be a good girl
But now it’s ok to be truest to you
Be an expression of the love that you are
Fear not my shining star
In doing so you get to be the change
That in this world is so deeply needed
Be the strength to hold the space
For others to also be their truest truth
Collectively making the world a better place
We are one yes- in some ways
we are a single link in the collective conscious space
You have your own unique blueprint - your gifts talents, & passion you get to share with the world
Within the collective 🙏🏼
I spoke a poem today
I spoke it out loud
I even spoke it to a tiny crowd
I was definitely nervous
But for what reason was I nervous?
What do I have to hide?
Am I not allowed to be humble & feel pride?
Do I fear being seen or heard ... or...
Judged from outside
I’m on a journey of self love
Connecting to my truest truth
Learning to be the best version of me
So then wouldn’t it make sense
That I could be willing to be
Open & vulnerable
Not worried about who sees
Or hears or if I offend
When I know I come from a place of only love in the end ❤️
We can’t fight a war with war
We can’t fight hate with hate
There is no peace when we retaliate
In revenge no one wins
Love has to start within
Words are powerful
So be wise with what you think
And think before you speak
We think in words
And thoughts are energy
Though lead to feelings also known as emotions
Emotions are energy IN motion
Therefore the thoughts we think, create this energy in motion
The words we speak aloud envoke emotion
So then it seems important to me
To be very aware of the words we chant and speak - specially as a crowd
Because power in two is stronger then one
So chants done collectively
Carry intense energy
Think this sounds too “whooo whooo” for you
Look into it - cuz it’s honestly true
In a world that is built in so many lies
There is one truth that you can see with your own eyes
Quantum physics - it never lies
It’s the most reliable science
Just ask Dr Bruce Lipton, my fav 😉
And I have to say I believe in it too
Energy exists -it’s literally everywhere and in everything
From every word to thoughts to the mantras we sing and chant
So if there is even the slightest possibility this is the case
Wouldn’t it make sense to trust & embrace
If we are going to think and then speak and then create a feeling
We may as well make sure it has positive meaning
A lot more Focus on what we want to create
A lot less focus on what drives the hate
And continues to separate
So what if we start to say “we WILL breath” watch and see
In peace with justice we will be
Words spoken aloud or silently
Try it yourself
I promise if you quiet your mind
Get super present
Feel your body you will undeniable witness
The very difference
Two opposite mantras can create within and all around you
So let’s be powerful forces that only speak out loud bountiful, beautiful chants of what we want to manifest
Stand tall be proud with poise and confidence
This positive energy flowing will bring so much healing
Chant together I am I will I can we are we will we demand
United we stand
A powerful force that can’t be reckoned
As long as we speak love and stay connected
Focus on the world we WANT to see
Speak the truth of this new world unanimously
I’m excited for this truth to be known
And I’m thrilled to watch the beauty unfold