Trust .... They say it's the key to every healthy relationship... I say its the key to life ... Which is centered around the biggest most important relationship of them all. I've heard the saying, be careful what you ask for ... Cuz you usually get it ... Or ... The saying that when we declare an intention or commitment we usually get tested in numerous ways, over and over again until we pass... Isn't that part of what life is? A series of tests... To challenge us to grow - to step outside of our self... And to in some way give back to the world more then we take through our own gifts?
One huge part of me, the old self, the programmed, conditioned lifelong habitual thought patterned self... Wants to run... Wants to listen to the fears running through my head, twisting my emotions ... Causing me to doubt... It's in these weak moments - through these old belief systems we battle to win control over that the enemy, our mind, attacks... It's up to our conscious self to remain at peace, focused on what deep down we know is the truth.. To not be fooled by the lies, to not give in to the fears, the old stories... To create new stories and honor our commitments to change the trajectory of our lives... Of your minds ... Simply put: to TRUST.
It sounds so simple and yet so complex when put to the test... You proclaim a commitment to trust - to have faith- to stay strong - to honor your burning desires - to not quit... And the moment you do- boom... Things happen - life happens - people happen ...and it's in these moments, these challenges, we either grow through the struggle or we suffer - it's always a choice. Not easy, but nevertheless, a choice.
What happens when you feel like you are finally overcoming your demons, your struggles, your old belief patterns... You finally have your conscious mind back in charge ... And whack- you get smacked in the face... Blind sighted ... You have to choose - who wins...
What happens when "trust issues" are your "thing" ... And right when you FINALLY choose to trust, after years of struggling with the whole concept of it... What if the very people you FINALLY confided in, trusted with all of your heart, opened yourself up to, became vulnerable to ... What if they walked away, turned their head the other way? Do you beat yourself up? Do you find all the ways you weren't worthy? Does your old mind use these people and situations to reaffirm to your self why your old beliefs were right all along? Do you question your lovability? Do you question your judgement? Do you demand yourself to not trust anymore? Do you push everyone else away? Do you run?
OR ... Do you pick your head up- evaluate where you could have been better in the relationship, learn and grow... Do you allow the person(s) to walk away, while keeping your head up high? Do you recognize that maybe, just maybe, it's all a test of TRUST.. And do you remember that not all people are meant to be in your life for a lifetime, some just a season, some just a reason... And do you remember that at the end of it all - we were meant to TRUST - cuz we aren't the ones in control after all... And do we remember that sometimes old is cleared out of our life to make room for new, even if, it makes no sense in the moment and maybe even hurts like hell.
It's a tough choice .... But it's just one of many tough choices that make up life ... These choices are often going to be determined through the way we process life ... And they will all, each and every one, ultimately have profound impact on the outcome of the whole journey... So I say, no matter how hard it is, the best choice is as clear as day: TRUST. Easy to say, harder to do...but always worth it.
Wednesday marks the anniversary of my life <3 and I am excited to celebrate my 35th year here :) … I have been studying a lot about the 7 year cycles of life… and the change we undergo as a result… It is suggested that approximately every 7 years we undergo transformation...from the inside out... and 35 happens to be a multiple of 7.. and boy this year proved to be a year of change for me … particularly in the last 6 months leading up to this day…and it has all been for the better… I have learned a ton, grown immensely, and I see life in a whole new light. I am excited!!! I would say now more then ever I have a solid group of amazing souls in my sphere of influence.. people I love beyond words, people who love me in return, particularly people who love me for who I am and love me wherever I am at, and through whatever I go through. Ive had to accept some tough situations, and make some of the hardest decisions I have ever made. I have lost some friends, and gained some new ones. I have mentors and elders that I genuinely look up to, and feel blessed to have as role models in my life. I have a new understanding of life, and the direction I am headed. My passions have been solidified, my goals and dreams are crisp and clear, and my faith in it all is stronger then it ever has been. I just have to say THANK you to everyone who has been a part of my journey, called Life. Thank you to everyone who has been here through it all, and who is here through it now. Thank you to those who have been a part of the lessons, and those who are a part of the laughter and smiles, and the adventure. Thank you to everyone who has been a part of teaching me, imparting wisdom into my mind, and love into my heart. Thank you to everyone who has left a positive imprint in my life. Thank you to those who have been a challenge… because even in the challenge is opportunity to learn and grow. I am particularly grateful for every client and friend that has ever entrusted me to be a part of their journey called life, particularly their journey to health and wellness. I appreciate beyond words the chance to take my passions and what I have learned over the years and share it all with each of you!!!
I am so excited for the next 7 years and what is to come, for myself and everyone else! I know my goals are to SMILE more, laugh LOUDER, not take life so seriously, always remember my “WHYS” in everything I do. Work toward my CONTRIBUTION to serving, giving and helping the world to be better in the ways I know how, in the ways I am destined… I want to practice STILLNESS, and silence… and I want to wake up EARLY, WALK often, watch SUNSETS, take NAPS, listen to BIRDS chirp, hear the BREEZE speaking between the branches of trees… I want to practice DEEP breathing, enjoy not rushing, APPRECIATE the little things… be GRATEFUL for EVERYTHING… always LEARN something new, challenge myself often, stretch my mind beyond comfort, see the GOOD in every person, practice non-judgement, LOVE more people - as an action… and complain WAY-WAY less!!!! I want to be completely me… without feeling bad or sad, guilty or mad… I want to be completely authentic - without fear - giving others permission to also be true to who they are too…I want to be FLEXIBLE (physically of course) but MORE in MIND… I want to be free FLOWING… like water softly flowing through a creek over and between rocks and earth… I want to design & CREATE… I want to DREAM BIG, really BIG…and have giant FAITH in the possibilities of this LIFE… I want to think POSITIVE, give people the benefit of the doubt. I want to TRUST GOD, and take personal responsibility for choices I make, and the experiences I go through in life, because I know they are my own - and NOTHING I go through is someone else's fault. BUT when I do this it won’t be to play the blame game against myself, which leads to shame -rather I will recognize that I CAN think a new thought, make a NEW decision, and CHANGE what doesn’t work… I will READ often , and DANCE OFTEN too…I will try NEW things, EXPLORE new places, and remember DAILY to be in awe by the BEAUTY that surrounds me…. I want to move through space - my BODY - the way it was designed… I want to NOURISH it, respect it and ENJOY the time I have with it…We ONLY get ONE. I want to CHALLENGE it, honor it. I want to drink delicious COFFEE sometimes, because it is YUMMY, and eat food (that is less then nutrient dense) sometimes JUST because it TASTES amazing, and I can. I want to exercise my body & my mind…and PLAY…Oh, and forgive … I want to FORGIVE every wrong, every hurt, all my past, others and myself. Ohhhhhh .... I want to find solutions, not problems... I want to speak TRUTH, and not make ASSUMPTIONS... I want to speak LIFE & LOVE, not gossip... I know this list is HUGE & probably not the extent ... It will be forever morphing and evolving <3 Oh boy do I have a LOT of work to do and I am EXCITED...
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